Yes, my child has joined the legions of other babies dressed as ladybugs for Halloween. And with a damn good reason – ladybugs are cute, babies are cute, and babies dressed as ladybugs are about as cute as it gets. This is Norah with her goofy dad.
Yesterday was a good day for several reasons – Norah hit 2 weeks old, and it just so happened to be mine and Merry’s 4th anniversary. 4 years of marriage is pretty impressive in my book, especially because we get to mark this 4th year with an adorable milestone. Needless to say, we didn’t bother with gifts… the poop machine is enough of a gift. 🙂
I had my 2 week postpartum appointment today, and everything is looking awesome. I got to see my favorite midwife, show her my little squishy, and share some tidbits of my birth story that she hadn’t heard. The best part was, shockingly, stepping on the scale for the first time in 3 weeks, because I’ve already lost 18 pounds! Hell yeah. I am officially 3 pounds below my pre-pregnancy weight, and the nurse was shocked. I really do feel so good, though – I feel lighter, all of my old clothes fit well, and the only weight I really have left is in my boobs, which have kinda exploded due to the breastfeeding thing. And bigger boobs have made my clothes actually fit BETTER – thanks, clothing designers who don’t understand that not all women who wear size L/XL shirts have gigantic titties. Growing up with barely a B cup, these big old size D boobs are revolutionary. I hope they don’t go away. 🙂
Speaking of boobs – breastfeeding. The next great hurdle after you shove the kid out.
Long story short, Norah’s stay in the NICU set us back super far. Even just those 3 days apart from her made it so that I didn’t get to really give her a chance to latch, and I had to let them supplement her with formula to get the hell out of there. Luckily, by the time she was a week old, we were off the formula. I’m pumping pretty often, but I’m also nursing frequently during the day – she has to use a nipple shield since her latch is awful due to the supplement bottles. I’m sure the shield will be temporary, but because I know it can hurt your supply, the pumping is important. Plus, I’ve built up a tidy little stash in the fridge, and that makes me happy. 🙂 I give her bottles at night or when we go out, since nursing is a bit of a process with us owing to needing the exact right nursing pillow, the shield, etc. I’m not a pop the boob out and go lady yet. I mean, I may never be – but that’s okay.
That’s kinda the place I’ve come to after all this. Is my kid gaining weight? Like a freaking freight train – she’s a pound up from her birth weight already! She eats like a horse. Is she getting all breast milk? Absolutely. Are we spending time nursing each day, which is good for my supply and helps me prevent things like mastitis? Yep! So fuck the rest. Fuck the people who give me shit for bottle feeding (they exist, and they do give me shit, in fact). I’ve found a way to nurse that keeps my supply growing, that doesn’t hurt, and that keeps my little monkey fed. That’s all that counts.
Anyway. The Boob Saga will continue with us, I’m sure. I’m paranoid about my supply, but it’s holding so far.
Other tidbits? We are happily cloth diapering – she finally fits in her smallest covers, so that’s working out. She’s actually about to bust out of the preemie prefolds, so I have some newborn ones on the way to help transition into the next size. We scrambled to find her clothes that fit at first (I didn’t buy much newborn stuff), but now she’s getting into the 0-3 things, and I have plenty of those. She sleeps very well at night – I got a 5 hour stretch the other day! Usually she will sleep at least 2 chunks of 3 hours at night, sometimes 3. She doesn’t fuss or cry randomly – only for food or to be changed. She wants to be held most of the time, but that’s no big deal, cause I don’t wanna put her down. 🙂
So far, this little family of 3 is quite happy. I think we earned it.